Jane Ammon

About Jane Ammon~ Photographer

Specializes in Children and their Families

And is Naturally Devoted to Childish Delight

Archive: April, 2012



Devotion=Motherhood {Child Photographer}

Saturday, April 28th, 2012

A friend posted this video on facebook the other day. Go ahead, watch it.

                               

At the point where the little girl falls off the balance beam, I did that thing we do as mothers…

you know when you draw in your breath so sharply it becomes a cross between a sob and a gasp for air?

Since watching this I have been thinking about the word devotion and how it relates to being a mother.

When we become a mother, no matter HOW or WHEN we become a mother,

we graciously and painfully break off a piece of our soul and infuse it into our child.

(It’s kind of like when we were kids and we broke off a piece of our chocolate bunny’s ear to share with someone…

It feels good to do it but it hurts at the same time?)

Giving up a chunk of our own chocolate bunny is devotion to someone else that is a raw open wound that gets nurtured, protected and soothed one day but the next becomes a source of teeth clenching, agonizing, ‘WHAT was I thinking’ emotion.

Yet, we do it. We do it daily. We wake up in the morning, we go through our day and we kick ass at doing it.

Most of the time.

Those times that we don’t? We doubt, we worry and we fret.

We want it all to just stop.

Personally, I like to think like George Jetson and yell “JANE STOP THIS CRAZY THING!”

The truth is though?

I really don’t want to stop this ride, I just want some time to gain a piece of ‘me’ back.

And that’s ok.

Because devoting time to me, the Mama, by doing things that I love, allows me to recharge,

reconnect with my soul and then I am ready to release myself back to motherhood.

Back to this:

Oh man.

As I posted that image, it just happened again, that deep inhale that is a cross between a sob and a gasp.

I think I’ll call that sound devotion from now on.

Because the truth is, when we break off that piece of our soul and infuse it into our child?

They fill up that that gap with a something that’s so much larger then we gave them.

And somehow?

We have have plenty of room for their chunk of chocolate bunny.

Low-Cal Renewal! {Guest Post by-Ali Anderson-aka Awesome Lady}

Thursday, April 26th, 2012

Note from Jane: I am beyond thrilled to have this guest post from the amazing Ali Anderson of Ali Anderson Photography. I met this amazing lady at a workshop a year ago and I was instantly smitten with her. Ali was a SOAR scholarship recipient and is an amazing writer who just happens to be a stellar photographer too. You can catch her blog here (I highly suggest you do, I personally get gitty when a new post is up!), give her some facebook love here and check out her website here. Without further ramblings from me, here’s some witty advice from her…(Thanks Ali, I adore you woman!)

It’s quittin’ time. Punch your card, pour a glass of wine and spend a leisurely evening reflecting on all the spare time you have after the kids have gone to bed…

After you make the lunches for school tomorrow, respond to the 24 work e-mails that invaded your inbox during the commute home, and fold the pile of laundry that has been giving you the stink-eye since last weekend. Oh, and don’t forget to clean up the kitchen from dinner, pay bills and go to the store to procure 24 cupcakes for the school bake sale tomorrow (at this point, even Martha would accept a helping hand from her nemesis, Betty Crocker). Looks like Cinderella isn’t going to make it to the ball tonight…again.

You don’t need a Paula Deen look-a-like fairy godmother to whip up nonsensical spells at this point. You’re actually pretty good at working magic of your own. Those human-genome-mapping-scientist-type-people haven’t figured it out yet, but there’s a mutation of the multi-tasking gene that occurs during childbirth. You’ve got the parenthood insanity covered.

What you need is renewal. I’m not talking about a 20 minute bubble bath where the kids start banging on the door 8 minutes into it. You need to cook up something that sticks to your ribs…or at least your frayed, multi-tasking nerves. This weekend, try this:

 

You don’t have to be a photographer to experience the gifts that are inherent in the art. You also don’t have to “cook up” my recipe with the aim of taking of great photographs. You just need to commit to spending time away from your family in the pursuit of something that has no purpose other than to renew yourself.

For me, as a family photographer, that renewal is found in shooting without purpose and I try to do it almost every Saturday morning. Sometimes I go with friends, sometimes I don’t. Sometimes the only time I can squeeze it in is at the crack of dawn. The point is that for two hours, I wander in a world that doesn’t include work, piles of laundry or to-do lists. It usually includes some beautiful piece of the world I was too busy to notice during the week.

 

(Image copyright Ali Anderson Photography)

Cook up a single serving of renewal for yourself this weekend. In doing so, you end up feeding your entire family.

~Ali

Authenticity, Healing and Facing Doubt {Child Photographer}

Wednesday, April 25th, 2012

On the night of March 11, 2012 I looked at my husband, Erik, with tears in my eyes and fear in my heart and admitted to him that I knew I was sick. Really sick. The what if’s were running rampant through my brain and as I lay on the couch choking back the tears and mustering up all the courage I had to make it through the night so we could go to the doctor in the morning.

By the next night I was laying in an ER begging for relief from the pain and asking for answers. Medicine took away the pain, in time doctors discovered the answers but what unfolded from the entire experience was a life changing realization that pierced through my heart and shifted my soul to finally listen to my dreams and take one more giant step outside my comfort zone.

I often tell people “Life begins outside your comfort zone”….getting sick and then slowly better made me realize something…

It was time to practice what I preach.

In the time I have spent getting better this past month, I discovered the author and speaker Brene Brown. I read her book “The Gifts of Imperfection, Let Go of Who You Think You Should Be and Embrace Who You Are” and I kid you not, I cried with each chapter, fist pumped at each chapter and continually talked out loud to my Ipad (my Kindle app is on there) saying things like “Did she write this book for me?” “Seriously woman, how did you KNOW that?” and “UGH, don’t remind me that I do that!”

I spent all of last year digging deep with my business coach Jeff Jochum and I thought perhaps I had dug deep enough. Yet, my illness was a sign that maybe while I had dug deep enough and it was time to do a bit more discovery and finally put it all into action. Jeff has told me time and time again that I am one of the most authentic people he has met and I continually chose not to believe him, until I read Brene’s authenticity pledge.

Then, it happened. I knew then that it was time for me to stop fighting the truth. Stop hiding behind the fear and just be me.

Jane.

Naturally Devoted to Childish Delight.

The photographer that allows children to BE children and fiercely loves them for that, allows parents to be childish (even if just for a small bit!) and finds a way to be a part of their family…maybe just for a day (but it usually ends up being for a lot longer than that).

I have finally let go of that girl I thought I was supposed to be and embraced the woman child I really am.

And I love her. 

She’s healing and she’s happy.

(Photo on the left is me a few days after I got out of the hospital….photo on the right is a self portrait I took when writing this post)

 

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